so we're planning for our big day. we've come a long way. it's awesome.

but sometimes i just need attention from you. even if its just abit.

1. How did you meet your partner?
2. What first attracted you to your partner?
3. What did you do on your first date?
4. When did you know this relationship could be something special?
5. What made you think the relationship could be special?
6. What did your friends think of your relationship?
7. What did your family think?
8. Did you have to overcome any obstacles to be together?
9. What made you decide to get married? (if you did)
10.  What did you like about how you communicated?
11. What kinds of things did you enjoy doing together?
12. How did you let your partner know you were loved and cared for?
13. How did you nurture each other?
14. What did you feel were the strengths of your relationship?
15. Did you feel that any past hurts or pains began to heal by virtue of your relationship?
16. What were the times when you felt most deeply connected What were you doing? What were the circumstances?

questions that i wanna think about and discover

1. How did you meet your partner?
2. What first attracted you to your partner?
3. What did you do on your first date?
4. When did you know this relationship could be something special?
5. What made you think the relationship could be special?
6. What did your friends think of your relationship?
7. What did your family think?
8. Did you have to overcome any obstacles to be together?
9. What made you decide to get married? (if you did)
10.  What did you like about how you communicated?
11. What kinds of things did you enjoy doing together?
12. How did you let your partner know you were loved and cared for?
13. How did you nurture each other?
14. What did you feel were the strengths of your relationship?
15. Did you feel that any past hurts or pains began to heal by virtue of your relationship?
16. What were the times when you felt most deeply connected What were you doing? What were the circumstances?

questions that i wanna think about and discover

Well I guess I kept thinking about what he said to me last week. The very thought that people just change like that? Or the thought that he has been like that? Which scares me even more that I know he's going the way that God has never intended for us. I kept reading up on that issue. The more I read the more I feel burdened for him. Why did God intend for him to meet me? If I never met him, I wouldn't have known . God works in mysterious ways really.

As i look at his facebook page, i can't help but wonder, if i had missed the signs. i met a good friend for lunch today and left feeling very sad. he told me something which i would never have thought would come out from his mouth. i viewed him as the strong christian who has led a hard life after his mom passed away and lives with his dad. did his life play a part in him being like this? i still respect him for being the person he is, but what he told me? i just cannot accept. God says hate the sin but love the sinner. I love this person for one of the longest friendships I had in my life. I felt so stunned that I heard the cause of his depression. I even silently asked God, why did he change? Does God allow his children to be like this? IF no, would God lead him back? At least my friend is still attending church.

Was it in God's plan that I meet this friend? That he may confide in me today about his problems? One that I feel is such a burden to bear as I fear the sin itself. I feel bad that I told him I couldn't help him but i will definitely listen. I don't know what to do. God help me.

I pray silently everyday for my friend.

I have really tried to change. But I always get something bad inreturn. IS it not enough? Whatever happened to my good intentions?

I left KK micro lab on 2 Feb 2013. Somehow even though my term there was a short 1.5 years, after I left, I felt that I had left behind a legacy. One which no one can fill ( ok la so hao lian). even more hao lian, is that I brought molecular and general micro together. Especially the young ones.

haha, maybe the kind of role I play in a work place is like a glue which binds everyone. I miss everyone there!

sometimes i wonder why am i a girl? why do i have to have feelings

The amazing ten

Ahhh i finally got the 'package' from NHG. quite a good one, but i guess its also cuz of my experience. I had such a great afternoon today. No irene, no mei, no liza, no XY, in short.. no government!!

So its like, all the molecular people and us were slacking and joking the whole day. it was jsut awsome lah. I'm feeling quite sad that after these time, the molecular pple and i have such great rapport now. we played games last night till quite late and its just these awesome times which really make me think twice about leaving. I have such awesome colleagues

From molecular:
Han yang, though he just came back from UK from his masters, I think its amazing how he has integrated with the rest. Despite what i have know of him before he left for UK, he's really a great guy, a big brother to us.

Fahmi, the abang of the group , the only one who's the same age as me. Yes i can click with malays really well and its hard to find malays who can integrate into a 80% chinese group

Sharhana, another malay girl who clicks with me really well. we  just like to take walks out to the reception to grab our samples and at the same time talk about stuff

Beng Lee, the 'idiot' who loves to ask so many questions that everyone gets irritated with him. And also saying lots of stupid things. Goal in life is making people annoyed

Zheng Hao, the one who is in PSB too, finally he has a gf, who is also from KKH. likes to make weird special effects and doing stupid things with beng lee

Xinyi, the dominating one, but still loveable. Its amazing how she can be so dominating and yet still so shy when it comes to meeting new people. She's also quite smart and the one who irene was looking for to groom .

Kai Qian, the baby of everyone, i love the fact that she's a non gossipy kind of person and wont take sides, loves to laugh at everything and everyone loves her

Lee Jing, the da jie, who is serious and can be really lame at different times. the steady one who is like a stoic pillar

Priya, the one who likes to hold everyone together, despite some differences between her and some of us, she still makes effort to bring everyone together

So these amazing people I'm working with everyday? I couldn't ask for more.