i know.. i'm not supposed to feel like this, but feels like i'm ... backsliding? i know God is always there, but somehow, i feel like He's not really here. these few times where i seriously need a friend, and i do want to grow close but i just can't. i don't even see God in church anymore, i find going to service a chore. i roam around just feeling so depressed and silent. I want to help myself, but i don't know, or i'm too tired to.

well, secret avid fan 2, do take care ok? God'll take care of your family problems. ok now, i feel hypocrite to say that. no worries, i only told kelvin. thanks for sharing anyways :)

back to dr brian chia tomorrow. school is cool. wow that rhymes.

i shall watch princess diaries.