Today, was so cool. i haven't stayed at home on a monday for AGES! as some people would know, i'm on leave!! wheeeee. till thursday. yea but you know, being at home, i still miss being at work. just listening to MF and Hk's bantering, incorigible patients scolding us all (sadistic of me i know), sound of the centrifuge, baby crying... i went over at 4 plus just now. quite excited to be there. MF was like 'vanessa, you come here, dont bring so many patient over lah'. her covered up way of saying 'why you come here when you're on leave'. laiteng is going to be there to cover me this entire week. heh okay probably when su goes off too.

i studied. but it wasn't enough. just feeels like i'm not cut out to do all these. chi square tests, T tests, all that rubbish which i don't ever think i ll use in the first place. know the devastation when you know you practiced something, but always never seem to get it? i get that all the time. am i stupid? the exam is next friday, i hope something good comes out of it. someone please cheer me. i'm quite down these days.

anyway, i really love the song in my blog. it's Spiders by Lovedrug. I came upon them by chance while searching for a song to put in my blog. Its such a beautiful song. I love the metaphorical lyrics which they have literally spun and juxtaposed it to a spider and its web.

Searching on the wire
for a wire,
for a peace of mind,
like the spiders in the corners
that are never there,
to the one,
to the magic sun.
you're not that bright now,
but you will be someday soon,
and you will fall in love with the moonlight.

So come on,
come on and say so,
come on,
come on and say so.

If god was on the radio
i know he'd say to thee,
love is spiders on the edge,
and we're hanging by a thread,
connected to the other end of this
twisted frequency i've spun,
but i don't care,
i'd be happy
if you'd share
your web with me.

So come on,
come on and say so,
come on,
come on and say so

why don't you,
why don't you,
come on,
come on and say so