how nice it is but i think it would be great if we all could pray for terrorists alike. they need God! as much as i felt scared that walking home today would've been, instead i begin to think of what i would do if i ever saw a terrorist namely one by mas selamat K-something. in the first silly place, every malay guy above the age of 30 looks so alike to me that i simply cannot differentiate between the zuls from the salims to the selamats. the picture id that the police have blatantly posted on every block in singapore with the face of mas selamat with and without his moustache doesn't help at all.

if mr mas selamat were to suddenly appear in front of you, what would you do? seriously?

would you:
- call the police 999
- run away and hope that someone else saw him
- freeze in fear and hope he didn't see you
- walk to him and congratulate him for escaping stringent singapore security
- slap him for making thousands of army people get mobilized to find him (what a dua bai)
- or just simply, talk to him?

food for thought eh?

and anyways, i made someone happy today. i feel happy cuz i did so . its a good unselfish feeling. however, i 've also made someone unhappy today. maybe even more unhappy. i keep thinking to myself, i just want to do a lot for the latter tonight, however, i was selfish and dimwitted to think that i'll be a burden to this person. in terms of my presence. i'm sorry, but i guess, its too late and don't think thy'll see this.

this week simply just sucks. MF showing favouritism, LT keeps making so much noise, i keep having lots of difficult veins since i haven't been phlebotomizing for 2 months. i know it sounds lame, but believe me, once you missed ONE vein, the entire morning is just simply gloomy. i think maybe its because i pride myself in being the best (to myself) and i just have too high standards( like only poking once , only poking at antecubital area, no dorsal) . since today, there's this uncle who scold me for poking him twice, after that, no confidence already for the entire day, and i do mean the entire day, i've no confidence to even talk to the person i made unhappy today, i just felt as if i'm arrowed even though i guess im not but it sucks but GAH! i doubt anyone would understand.

this is a rare blog post from me cuz i dont like to pour out everything like this. vulnerable leh. lol and i also went to pay my school fees in the nick of time. must really prioritize well. met nurul at woodlands to find the hp. i think its amazing how humans work, how one would go so far to find something for someone. oh well, i thought i could enjoy 1 half day yesterday but haha...

we must all find a joy in whatever we do.