i guess today i was going to work with a slightly heavy heart because S is in one of her moods thing again. probably because yesterday was the anniversary. No idea and i want to say i don't care but that would mean i'm back to my being indifferent again. ok i do just a little because we all love to wonder when something out of the norm happens. so its like i thought it was ok since we left for lunch as she had half day yesterday and we walked to the 66 bus stop since my alteration shop is there. talk abit then today, she's the same again.

thats why i've always wanted a transfer, i can never work with someone who is a good friend in the same place. just as alvin have told me before. quite true la. so i just hid behind a very cheerful facade today. yesss very cheerful UNUSUALLY cheerful. so she 'll think i'm still approachable la. but doesnt work, so i don't care anymore already. but its lousy because theres always this competition we're going through.

on a bright side, this unusually cheerful mood came unexpectantly because i just suddenly have a joy . the joy of the Lord is my strength, really pulls me through and i've just been singing in my head the songs zicai want to lead today so yup. its still all goood.