math1040, one of my repeat modules was done and over with yesterday. exam paper? darn difficult whereby i made a very silly mistake in one of the questions, i was so tired because of so much studying over the past weeks, really no life. during the exam, i actually wanted to take a nap for half hour before i do it, but somehow just forced myself through. costed me quite a lot i guess. and then worse, after the exam, one of the students came around and said ck gave revision questions similar to the exam paper during one of his consultations. really no life la she. wanted to petition against ck but we didn't want to as he had helped us quite a lot . it might seem like we were ungrateful towards him. he even sent us email addressing the issue. dont know why but i just feel like a failure these days. failure in studies, work etc. in studies? goodness how many have i repeated . i see su, don, elaine withdrawing from the program and why? because 'cannot work and study at same time' because no passion in this field. i can't say i am because i'm not but why am i not as successful as other students are. why do i work hard but during the exam, the finale, ijust crap everything like that. am i just not meant to further my studies? am i just bound for failure all my life.everyone might say 'look on the bright side of life' etc etc, but i rather be pessimistic now. i would very much like to cry over it but i dont have emotion these days. just very very brain dead already. plus today was a bad day for me , i just let my bad side show today. i could've been better but i just chose not to.

on the bright side, i'm over with maths, going to start the year 2 modules soon.
oh happy birthday to an old friend!