having arty friends, psychology friends around me have opened my eyes to my surrounding. it makes me see the world as big and huge and i'm just a tiny speck in it. social norms have never been my forte. i've always like to claim myself as someone who doesn't like to follow what others do? example would be everyone having facebook but i dont have one. but what does it prove? that i'm different from everyone else? no it just shows my stubbornness to be isolated.
working and studying and churching are my 3 basic activities. each of these have open my eyes to different aspects to life which i've been so closed up to. i've said that everything feels fake these days but someone advised me that no matter how fake something is, if we don't have God, we're nothing. that day it just changed my view.
i've wanted my life to be exciting like how it was being a youth. now being an adult has a lot of changes .
one thing being money. recently i had to file income tax and i really thank God my salary isn't high enough to be taxed yet. i realized i have lots of insurance policies and my school to pay for which doesn't leave me with much . my source of entertainment unfortunately leaves me with free online games like dota and movie streaming. which leaves me to wonder if i can exist in this world without money and everybody would say no. i hate being a slave to money but i can't help worrying every month if there is enough for myself, am i saving enough. are these signs that i'm being a slave?
being at work, dont know if its pple being depressed thus showing anger on us, but its quite stressed at work these days. like everyone not happy and aiyo its a whole cycle. patient not happy, we not happy, others around us not happy. i'm just struggling sometimes we just carry our burdens around such that it affects the pple it shouldn't affect. i'm still learning to be more patient. these people really drive me up the wall.
so overally, its being able to compartmentalize
actually i dont know why i'm typing this post out for, too much on my mind already that i dont organize my thoughts . oh no i'm doing it again.
haha.
working and studying and churching are my 3 basic activities. each of these have open my eyes to different aspects to life which i've been so closed up to. i've said that everything feels fake these days but someone advised me that no matter how fake something is, if we don't have God, we're nothing. that day it just changed my view.
i've wanted my life to be exciting like how it was being a youth. now being an adult has a lot of changes .
one thing being money. recently i had to file income tax and i really thank God my salary isn't high enough to be taxed yet. i realized i have lots of insurance policies and my school to pay for which doesn't leave me with much . my source of entertainment unfortunately leaves me with free online games like dota and movie streaming. which leaves me to wonder if i can exist in this world without money and everybody would say no. i hate being a slave to money but i can't help worrying every month if there is enough for myself, am i saving enough. are these signs that i'm being a slave?
being at work, dont know if its pple being depressed thus showing anger on us, but its quite stressed at work these days. like everyone not happy and aiyo its a whole cycle. patient not happy, we not happy, others around us not happy. i'm just struggling sometimes we just carry our burdens around such that it affects the pple it shouldn't affect. i'm still learning to be more patient. these people really drive me up the wall.
so overally, its being able to compartmentalize
actually i dont know why i'm typing this post out for, too much on my mind already that i dont organize my thoughts . oh no i'm doing it again.
haha.
posted by Queen P @ 10:44 PM
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