alvin and i went to send suraya off. okay it's not just 2 of us, its the entire group. plus donovan was also going so, there was his group of friends as well. its so fun cuz it was like a mini RP gathering. people whom i never thought i'd see again were there and wow it was exciting. su has just gone and i feel as if a part of me is missing, i mean cuz i think i spend the most amount of time with her than with other people. ok not fair la cuz we work together. and over these 2 years, getting to know each other, i actually found myself learning a lot. habits i've broken, new ones i've taken up was because i learnt from her. it's funny how sometimes i just want her to go so much previously. all the times when she would be preferred over me, when she's always shown to be better than me. but when she actually left, i found felt her 'lost' presence more. i guess the phrase 'you 'll never know how much you cherish the person until he/she is gone'. well she'll be back , hopefully with a completed degree. yup.

stuff i've heard these few days just make me wonder a lot of things. are things changing such that i can't keep up with it? and if i can't keep up, am i worth it? i feel ugly compared to you.