Dont worry im just feeling slightly depressed. Think I cant sleep alone. Being alone feels lonely. Being lonely makes me think bad thoughts. Maybe im just feeling a little down. Like before that certain time of the month comes kind of crazy. What am I thinking about? Feels like I am worse than before. So much more uglier and heavier and disgusting. I can be so much better like I had been. A day dream I have sometimes is of someone stroking my hair telling me im beautiful. Whatever I try just doesn't work. Maybe im not doing hard enough. Like I said, dont worry. Just an hour of pitying and crying in my own bed. Tmr I ll be better.